Once you realize that there is no one else out there that is going to save you except for yourself, only then can you start living your best life.
This should light a spark in you to know that no one else is going to do it for you. That no one else is coming to save you. That you are the only one that can do it. It’s do or die. Life or death. Sink or swim. There is no prince charming that is going to come on a white horse carrying you away into the sunset. There is no superhero climbing mountains and walls to save you. There is no knight in shining armor fighting bad guys to whisk you away. There is none of that. There is only you.
That is why you have to dig deep inside of you and find all of the parts of you that keep bringing these things into your life in the first place. Is it because of child wounds? Is it because you are not facing your own demons? Is it because you have unresolved trauma from another life? Is it because you wanted to save everyone else? What is it? Why are all these terrible things happening to you over and over again?
Once you answer some of these questions, you can start moving on to finding solutions and taking action. You can start doing things to change your situation and bring you back into the light. Being a woman is not a very light place to be in to begin with. Maybe this is the part of you you are not embracing. Being a woman is dark and that is why they all drilled you. Because you were everything that they were not. And that is why they keep taking advantage of you and why they won’t let you through. They want to keep looking like something they are not and they would like the same for you but in the adverse way.
Well I have been willing and compliant with everything that has come my way but still nothing. They choose to keep me stuck. Because if I’m stuck, then they are not. And they can continue to deteriorate me and live a life of lies. That was the hidden motive of my abusers since the moment I wanted to break free. He told me he was “going to bury me” so there is no secret about it. And he did have some dirty accomplices. And so together, they did just that. They took me down and “buried” me. I know he’s secretly waiting for me to die. Literally. That revelation came to me the other day when I saw him in the therapist’s office. It just proves how sick and evil he really is. But try telling him that. He will laugh in your face and say it is all untrue. And so that is why you just have to steer clear of all of them and let karma take care of it and you take care of yourself. Because the truth always comes out in the end, whether they like it or not. And you my dear are the only one that can save yourself from their puppetry, ropes and chains and go on to living your own life free of their soul sucking ways.
So go on, dig deep, find the underlying issues and set yourself free. Don’t waste anymore time and don’t give away anymore of yourself to the wrong people. Release, cut and move on. It’s the only way.